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Thursday, June 10th, 2004
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Yesterday was a weird day for me. I was really sad and angry in the morning and through school. But once I got home everything went away. Maybe it's because I was talking to Taryn. haha. Maybe...friends tend to do that. Make you feel better, that is. I went online yesterday and I haven't been online for sooooo long. It was kind of weird. Of course, my brother came home and I didn't hear him coming in so I jumped (reflex) and I hurt my neck. No joke, it really hurt. LoL. Yeah, the person who I was writing *he* because of now knows who *he* is, but I am going to keep writing it that way only because I like it that way. haha. Yeah...so, *he* was kind of having a bad thing going on when I was talking to *him* once yesterday and I mean, I felt really bad. For *him* that is. And I wanted to help *him* and make *him* feel better, but I didn't know what to do. OMG, I'm a horrible person!!! I didn't even know what to say to make *him* feel better. ::sigh:: However, when I talked to *him* later *he* was in a better mood, but still...I felt bad. *He* liked my poem though. ::grins:: (yes, I have bright white teeth! haha) I'm glad *he* liked it, I didn't think it was that good. I could have made it better, but *he* told me to write more, so I am going too. I'll probably even go write one right now. Hmm....yeah, I think I will. After I go buy 2 chocolate chip cookies and chocolate milk...my breakfast every other day. ::rubs tummy:: Yummy! And hopefully...I can get Kev's email today and email him. It's crazy...I haven't talked to him since 8th grade. That's a long time. He's still cute though. LoL. He's proud of his little honda. hahaha. He's crazy. Hopefully he'll want to talk to me too. Alright, I'm out. Later...752am.
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| Time: | 10:40 am. |
| Mood: |  ecstatic. |
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Well well well...it's Tuesday.... ::yawn:: I am really tired.
Last night, *he* came to visit me. hehe. *he* makes me happy. As weird as that may sound. Yeah....um.....yeah....haha. I am off now...mainly because I have nothing else to say...ugh...I have my hospial shift tonight...later...1037am.
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Hey everyone. I hope you all are doing good. I haven't updated in a while. I've been kind of busy. Right now I'm supposed to be on my way to piano, but I don't really want to go yet.
I was talking to *him* last night. I choose not to mention his name. haha. Who knows, *he* may read this. Umm...if you do and you know who you are...HI! haha. Yeah....*he* is totally nice. I like talking to *him*. *He*'s funny too. I'll be talking to *him* later today, as I always do during 4th period. Lucky bastard, *he* gets out of school about an hour earlier than I do. Damn *him*!
*sigh* Alright, I am off to piano now. Damnit. Someone kill me now...that class is so fucking boring....
I might be able to see Taryn tonight if she doesn't have plans. YEAH!! I can see her yearbook too. Even more YEAH!! LoL...I'm over it...peace out...957am.
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Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004
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| Time: | 7:55 am. |
| Music: | Brand New. |
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What up everyone. I'm Amanda. I was just searching for communities and found this one. I love Brand New. I'm listening to them right now. Yeah...I don't know what else to say. So....later. -Amanda- xoxo
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| Time: | 12:08 pm. |
| Mood: |  bored. | | Music: | the quiet things that no one ever knows - brand new. |
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Hey Everyone! Here is my weekend.....
Friday night - went out with Matt. That was tons of fun!
Saturday - went shopping with my mom and grandma. got lots of new clothes! now i'm all pretty!
Sunday - went to phil's for a bbq. was gone all day. ugh...saw dan. yeah! i won't see him until he gets back from virginia and washington d.c. he will be there for training for 2-3 years. it sux having a cousin in the military. i think about him at least once a day. i worry about him a lot. i worry for vaugn too. he's being sent to iraq soon. poor vaugn.
Monday - went to sleep at 12am...woke up at 1pm. i've only slept that late and that long once in my life. was kind depressed half the day was gone when i woke up. i went to the pool and layed out for a while. i did some of my homework. i had to do study questions for huckleberry finn and i'm on chapter 18 out of 42. they are due 4th period today too. i guess i will have to finish them tonight and turn them in tomorrow for half or late credit. ugh.....
hmm.....kurt is hot. mucho hot. congrats taryn!!! good luck!!!
alright everyone...have a good week. i will update more pics later. *muah* later...1157am.
oh yeah....the first pic is of dan and vaugn at my uncle's. dan brough kahlua and vodka into the house. i was in heaven i wanted some soooo bad. he taught me to play some guitar so my fingers and wrist hurt from practicing. owie! then there is a pic of me and phil. we were just messing around. the other pic i have of me and him...he looks stoned in it. that's why i didn't put it up. peace.
aw...the pictures didn't work....i will put them on later.
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Check it out...I put pics on it...lol T.
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I have a 72.6 and only 3 weeks left. Ahhh....I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm glad I did extra credit for the report I'm turning in today. And now it totally sucks because I can't go out between now and the end of school. Which means if Jess, Taryn and Adam want to get together...I can't. And then Adam is gone. So I won't see him before he leaves on the 14th or what not. I'll have to wait until he gets back. ::grr:: Well, I lasted almost 8 weeks. I can last another 3. Plus, I get to go out tomorrow night with Matthew. I know way too many Matts. haha. That's why I call him Matthew. 'Spinning out of control...out of control...spinning out of control...' Kevin pisses me off...why do I like him so much? I don't know...900am.
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My friend Ryan is totally funny. I had told him I wanted a car for my birthday, so what does he do? He brings me a Ferrari key. haha. Not just any Ferrari key, but a Honda Acura key with the Ferrari symbol on it. LoL. It was hilarious! I guess this week is local band week at school. Yeah! I love local bands....I mean, I love them so much...I'm going to Sing Sing on Sunday night just to see...all local bands! I went to Sing Sing once before and last time at the Spectrum I saw a local band 'Transistor Radio'...damn are they good. I had the lead singer, Bradley, sign the cd I bought. He wrote 'Your rock my face office' and crossed out the 'ice' on office. Don't ask. I guess he can't talk and write at the same time. This weekend is going to be fun. OH! I got my class ring!!! Woo hoo!! It's very pretty. haha. I'll show everyone when I see them. It's soooo freaking small though. I have really small fingers. Alright, I am off to study for Chem and look on the job board for a second job. Later...912am.
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Well, my weekend was tons of fun! And I mean TONS! Friday night I went out to dinner with my mom and she gave me her diamond ring for my birthday. It is soooo pretty! Then on saturday I went and got a pedicure after cleaning my room. My room took about 3 hours. Then everyone came over. I know, only 5 showed of the 11, but it's alright. I love everyone who showed and it was totally fun!!! I was so happy to see Jessica and Adam. I hadn't seen them in soooo long!!! I missed you guys! Went to Balboa...took tons of pictures. Scary guys were watching Taryn and I by the beach with their camera phone...lol. Fell asleep around 130am. Got lost on the way home. Just a little. It was fun though. I'm glad Jessica has gotten lost so often she can stay calm. Unlike Taryn and I in the back seat. And omg, 'Someone's gettin' fucked up!'-guy. Hottie. Total HOTTIE. :) Then on my actual b-day. I went to lunch with my gram and len. Went to mimi's. Good stuff. Got tons of gifts. Thomas and Scott came over. That was fun. Thomas is a funny guy. Scott is cool too though. Kind of quiet though. I have a funny picture of them. haha. Talked to Olga for a while. Talked to Matt for about a 1/2 hour. Woo...I finally feel 17. haha. Alright, I have to get to class. Later...801am.
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| Time: | 9:52 am. |
| Mood: |  awake. | | Music: | Hoobastank (god i love them!!!). |
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Sorry I haven't updated in forever...here ya go....
So....my weekend was pretty chills. Until I got sick. Friday night I went out with Taryn. We went to Target and there were these guys in their car and they were yelling at us, but we couldn't hear them. I swear they yelled 'it looks like you're wearing a table cloth!'. Anyway, we then went to the spectrum. We saw David and Cayle...can't spell his name...there. And I found out where Celia works. Now I can go bug her! haha. Then we got home....talked to Thomas for about 3hrs. That was fun! haha. Got off the phone at about 3am....fell asleep....woke up around 8am and off to the laguna hills mall we went. We ended up at In 'n' Out and met up with Thomas. Hmm...sitting in the car forever and then walking through the mall one way and then the next and only one thing was bought! Sounds like fun, huh? Then by the time I got home I felt like shit. My throat hurt and I had a headache and a stomache. Taryn and I took pictures of us sitting in her trunk for our music video and this guy pulled over in his white van....he was about 40 I suppose....and he says 'Now that's what I'm talking about? Want to get in the back of my car next?' I said 'Um...We'll pass.' and he left. We saw him again on the way to the pool and he stops and says 'Last chance girls'. Taryn said 'no' and off we went. He was freaky. So I ended up working Saturday night and felt like shit when I got home so I watched some tv...I was home alone ::tears::...and went to bed. Then on Sunday I went and saw my cousin Dan. He was on weekend leave from the marines. My aunt and I drove him, Corey, and Von back to the base. Poor Von...he is going to be sent to Iraq probably within this month. He just turned 19. I hope my cousin is never sent. I'm really relieved he went for presidential protection. No one really talked the whole way to the base. I didn't want to see him go. I never want to see him go. I'm scared for him everyday. Dan kept putting on good music though. Every song he put on I knew. It was kind of nice. I never knew we had music in common. I guess I'll write to him about it. Talking about my cousin Dan makes me think of my friend Dan. haha. Oh yeah, and I called everyone about my party on Sunday. It took forever, but finally there is a plan and it will work. It will damnit! I'm off now...not much else to say and I still feel like shit...peace out...931am. P.S. My hair is curly today!! yeah!
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||Birth Name|| Amanda
||Nickname|| Panda, Mandy, Shorty...can't think of the others right now.
||Age you act|| I don't know...you all tell me that.
||Height|| 5' 4"
||Birthplace|| Orange, CA.
||Hidden Talents|| Um...I don't know if I have any really. I can play the clarinet, but don't anymore.
HAVE YOU EVER...
||Pictured your crush naked|| Yes, of course.
||actually seen your crush naked|| Nope.
||been in love|| Oh, yes.
||cried when someone died|| I've cried because of deaths too many times to count.
||drank alcohol|| Of course.
||Fallen for your best friend|| Yep.
||been rejected|| Too many times to count.
||rejected some one|| Sady, yes.
||been cheated on|| I didn't like Kyle's answer. Me, no.
||done something u regret|| Who hasn't?
||Been In Jail|| No, but I know people who have been.
||Ran away from home|| Thought about it, but have not actually done it.
||Hit a Boy|| Yep!
||Hit A Girl|| yes
||Broken a bone|| Yes, both pinkies.
||Cheated On a Test|| I'm a white girl. What do you expect??
||Let a friend cry on your shoulder|| Yes.
||Fell asleep in the bath|| No.
||Walked in on someone changing or showering|| Yes. Let's not get into that.
||Gone to Church|| yes, actually. after a sleepover, went to bible school, baptisms, and bar mitzvahs.
||Never slept during a night|| Too many times to count.
||Seen someone die|| Um...let's not talk about that either.
||Thought you were in love|| Yes, maybe because I was...
||Screamed at someone for no reason|| OF course, once a month I do.
||Stayed up till 4 am on the phone|| Yes, past four.
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...
||what do u notice first?|| Eyes...can't get enough of them!
||last person u slow danced with|| Wow...um....Billy. haha...yeah.
||worst thing to say|| when you say it flat out 'I'm not attracted to you'.
||do you have a crush|| Of course of course!
WHAT COMES TO MIND WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT..
||Bill Clinton|| manwhore
||Love at First Sight|| Josh Hartnett
||Abortion|| Never would I kill someone so innocent.
||Pot|| My friends.
||Eating disorders|| My friend.
||Rap|| Makes me think of sad white boys. haha.
||Marilyn Manson|| 'We're all stars now...in the dope show'
||Suicide|| Jimmy.
||Drinking|| A lot of people I know.
||Life|| Live like there is no tomorrow.
||Memory of the year|| Um....I don't know...too many good ones!
||Food|| hmm...chocolate.
||Favorite movie|| That Thing You Do and A Walk To Remember...they tie.
||Favorite Book|| Catcher In The Rye.
||Favorite type of music|| Rock. Old and New.
||Favorite type of cars|| Eclipse.
||Favorite Saying|| 'I'm so stoked!'
||Favorite Fast Food|| In 'N' Out
||Favorite Ice Cream|| mmm....chocolate chip cookie dough
||Favorite Alcohol|| Vodka or Kahlua
||Favorite Television Show(s)|| One Tree Hill
||Your Ideal BF/GF|| Someone with really nice eyes who can just sit with me and we don't need to talk, we can just hang. They have to give good hugs too! Oh yeah, they have to like me too, but not too much. They have to think I have flaws as well.
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MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly
motivated. Sharp
thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves
attention. Deep
feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm
Standpoint. Needs no
motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left
brain). Loves to dream. Strong
clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in
the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
literature and the arts.
Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless.
Not having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift
What does your birth month say about you?
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OMG! That is so me! That explains why I always got strep throat and ear infections too! And the 'weak breathing'...I can't breathe when I run! Plus the 'easily angered' and 'loves attention' and 'dislike being at home'...well you all know me and that is me! How weird! I love it. That was cool. Alright, I'm off and for Taryn....though you won't see this until after I see you...the 'he' on my last entry is Dan. Peace out...740am.
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| Time: | 9:12 am. |
| Mood: | ecstatic. | | Music: | Gotta Get Away - The Offspring. |
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HE IS THE CUTEST EVER! EEE! I'M SOOOO HAPPY RIGHT NOW! ::SIGH:: I CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF HIM!!!! I CAN'T WAIT! 912AM.
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| Time: | 2:48 pm. |
| Mood: |  angry. |
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i wanted that to be private^^^ it didn't work though. god damnit. ::sigh:: i'm stuck with my dad and brother because my mom is out of town and i have to work tonight fucking 5-9pm. oh yippe! another night to fight with modesto over my hours because they are cutting hours. isn't that joyus! i have to get back to class...hope you all had a good weekend and made your moms happy. late...249pm. i hate my english sub... ::grr::
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| Time: | 8:49 am. |
| Mood: | cheerful. | | Music: | Ther Reason - Hoobastank. |
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ok....so my dad is probably getting a car tonight....a convertible...it's dark blue...anyway, so he's probably getting it and since my mom is going to be out of town next week in arizona...i'm probably going to have to drive my dad's new car to school for like 4 days. i can't believe they are going to let me do it, but i need a way to get to school. my mom was telling me to drive like i'm 90 when i drive it. it's not that i'm scared of driving or that i'm a bad driver (yes, i speed sometimes...my brother finally got a speeding ticket), it's just...i'm scared of someone hitting me. and i'm not taking drinks in the car anymore so they know i won't be distracted...unless there's this really hot guy...haha j/k. and i'm wearing tennis shoes everytime i drive one of their cars. my dad wants me too. ::sigh::
be nice to your mommy's on sunday!! my bro and i are taking my mommy out to breakfast. and then i'm going to interview a fireman at a firehouse for my chem project. yes, i'll take pictures for all of you!!!! no seriously, i'm taking my camera. haha. i'll call you all this weekend about my birthday! peace out...853am.
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| Subject: | Track guys.... |
| Time: | 7:52 am. |
| Mood: | bouncy. | | Music: | I Hate Everything About You - Three Days Grace. |
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Alright, so last night was fun. I was at the hospital and really upset that Kevin didn't show. I was thinking 'oh great! he hates me!' Anyway, so who do you think I called first...(if you guess Taryn...you're right, but she didn't answer) I called Kyle and guess where he was...a track meet. And guess who was with him...Kevin! And...a whole bunch of other track guys. I think I talked to about 8 guys in about 3 minutes. It was crazy. They were all majorly cool though. Except for this freshman named Corey who was groping everyone there and this guy with an accent who told me to come to his country. haha. Other than that, they all were cool. And I asked Kev about my birthday. He has to find out what he's doing that day. I hope he comes! ::crosses fingers:: I was just happy that he was even talking to me!! haha.
I will be calling everyone to invite them tomorrow after I get home from shopping. I hope everyone can come...it's going to be kick ass! I love Newport...especially Balboa! Plus, it's the Fun Zone...I go there every year practically...Taryn, Kristina and I will definetly have fun! hahaha.
Alright, I'm off to class to take the damn star testing. Does anyone else hate it as much as me? Damn it's annoying!
Peace out...756am.
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alright....nothing much is going on with me. this weekend was tons of fun! friday night went to a movie with my mom. saturday- taryn came over and i got to leave the hosue for 3hrs. costa mesa baby yeah!! haha...there was a guy down the street and some really hot guys in a little red car that almost backed into us and i start cussing at them, but did i mention they were really hot?? then there was the guy washing his car with the blonde fro and skinny body. 'excuse me? can you get me wet?' then there were the boys in the white suv that we made eye contact with that turned out to be the whittaker boys (spelling?)....TONY HERE WE COME!!! hahaha. yeah. it was tons of fun. can't wait until my bday party!!!! woo hoo!!! 18 days until the party. i'll be calling you all tonight hopefully to let you know about it. so yeah. well....i'm off now to get to my star testing. fucking star testing...grr...it drives me insane. ::gulp:: i have to see kevin tonight!!! ahh!!! peace out...757am.
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Thursday, April 29th, 2004
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i cannot wait until saturday!!! i get to see taryn!!! weeeeeee!!!!! i missed her sooooooo much!!! we had so much fun talking on the phone last night!!!
hey! my senior quote is going to be short and sweet!! i can't wait!!! LoL. hahahahaha.
keep may 22nd open if you want to come to my birthday bash! i will let you all know about the details when i know the details myself. probably next week or weekend.
weee!! i'm sooo hyper right now and i don't know why either. hahaha...HEY JESSICA!!! can my tongue tell your tongue a secret?? haha. ask taryn...she will explain....lol. i miss you girl! please tell me you'll come to my bday bash...it would be boring without you!
alright...i don't want my hyperness to wear off from sitting here too long and i need to get to class...so i'm off!! maybe i'm just happy since jimmy talks to me again and kyle is funny. i don't know.
OCC ALL THE WAY BABY!!! HAHAHA...I CANNOT WAIT!! peace out...757am.
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Wednesday, April 28th, 2004
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oh my gosh, one tree hill was a really really good episode last night. i liked it. :D
i'm going looking for a 2nd job today. i hope i can find one too. i need the money. that way i can work stein mart: sunday, monday, wednesday. volunteer tuesday. and work my other job: thursday, friday, saturday. yes, that's right. no days off. well...friday morning or night, depending on when i work with my 2nd job. that is if i get one. i hope i can find one. i definetly want a 2nd job for summer. so if i don't get one before the end of school, i'll get one soon. then...probably come senior year, if i like my 2nd job better, then i will dump stein mart. and just work the other job. or maybe i'll just work both. i don't have many classes next year.
first semester:
1. political econ
2A. psychology 2B. guitar 1
3A. printmaking 3B. nothing
4. nothing
(out every other day: 145pm or 1130am)
second semester:
1. british lit
2A. adult living 2B. photographic art
3. nothing
4. nothing
(out everyday at 1130am)
alright, i know this is short. i miss you all soo much!!! only about 4 more weeks until i'm off house arrest. otherwise, i'm running away damnit!!! i have to go get sigs for my schedule and then turn it in...hope i don't get a dress code violation today...peace out...929am.
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Tuesday, April 27th, 2004
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hey everyone. yeah...it's tuesday. i get to see 'you know who' and i don't know what i am giong to do. i don't even know if he got the email and if he did, he didn't reply. and if he didn't reply then i don't know if it's because he didn't want to or because he's going to talk to me or what. i don't know...alright i'm going to stop stressing.
so yeah. it's tuesday second day of the week. have a good week i guess! i will probably update later this week. probably tomorrow to let you know what happens with him. yeah....::sigh:: i hate fucking high school. it's a bitch. and i hate people and guys...they can't fucking tell you what they're thinking or what they want. that fucking pisses me off. if girls can fucking speak their minds...how come guys can't?? i don't get it!!!
peace out...950am
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